sleepless nights

So last night Ben decided to party it up... which left mommy up from 1am-7am.... yup. how wonderful. It's a lot of work pumping... I wish Ben would just latch, and latch for good! It might be easier to feed him, instead of trying to get up before him, pumping, bottle it, feed him, burp him, cuddle him, put him down, get up to get the soother, wrap him, change him.. and the list goes on! I had a rough night and let my husband sleep. which then left me in tears all day. I did manage to sleepa little when Ben slept today but it is still a broken sleep with an hour here and there. But then today as he slept on me with his little squishy face made me realize it was all worth it, even though I am still crying due to lack of sleep. and I still have to go to work tonight. I don't think my husband realizes how much work I really do. It's not all fun and games while he is at work... oh well. This sweet little face makes the world go round and makes everything alright again.