20 weeks and panic sets in

well this is it. I am now half way through this pregnancy and panic is setting in. The nursery isn't even beginning to look like anything - it currently still is my office/guest room/junk room... we haven't bought anything baby related (except a giraffe piggy bank we bought in Cuba last week), and we are trying to get my debt paid off and some renos completed by October. Are we nuts?!

This is my first pregnancy, and to tell you the truth, right now I can't wait for it to be over. I have been sick since day one. I really want it to be octobe

r so I can meet this little one and be able to eat again. Is it weird that I am planning a meal for right after the delivery.

I am liking the kicking feelings right now. It makes everything so real and knowing that the babe is awaking and well. we had our 19 week ultrasound last week and it wasn't enjoyable in the least. We had a bad tech that made us more paranoid then anything and tomorrow I will find out from the doctor if there is anything wrong. Although I can give credit to the tech for confirming two of my worse fears. 1. there is a baby in there and 2. he/she has legs! but that is the only thing we know oh and he/she has a beating heart. We did not find out the sex. although I wanted too, Jon did not and I am no good with secrets.

So hopefully tomorrow there will be no bad news, and all good. I am also going to complain to the doctor because I asked for 3d (which they offer as a free service at the ultrasound place) and she refused to do one, so now if I want one I have to pay 200 dollars for it. I left crying.

Anyway that is about it. I have work to do today and haven't done it, and really don't want to but should. I have put it off long enough.


Feel free to guess the gender... My gut feeling is boy, but every now and then I will say girl.